After a month of record temperatures and dryness,
a storm finally came in, making the plants happy (they had the rain)
the cat happy (she had leaves blowing around to watch) and myself
happy (i could finally indulge myself in warm tea and laziness).
August 05, 2003
I killed a spider last weekend while camping. However
I saved a pigeon last month, a duck last week and a dog today, so
I'm hoping it'll all balance out and I actually won't go to hell.
June 25, 2003
With a little cloud, cold air and a laptop, I find
myself longing for the cafe. Not so much for the coffee,
but for a place to lounge, warm up and daydream just a little whilst
working. It's a comfort I used to have and crave once again.
June 23, 2003
There is nothing sweeter than Norah Jones playing
in the background as I work in my little garden while warm rain
softly falls. The simplicity of it yeilds me the biggest reward;
satisfaction.
June 21, 2003
The sign of a very good friend: you email her declaring
that you need an adventure, a week or two in France and you want
her to come. Not only does she shout yes, but she tags on another
week to Italy.
June 10, 2003
After speaking to the receptionist I sat down beside
a boy of 5. He stared at me for 10 minutes then said to his mum,
"it's her." Embarrassed the mother said to me, "I'm sorry for his
staring, but he thinks you're Alice in Wonderland." I smiled at
the boy and said, "Close - I'm Alex in wonderland.
May 05th 2003
I did it, despite the fact I knew it was my best
friend's wedding weekend and she needed sun. I did it despite the
fact it's cruel. I am prepared to go to hell for smooshing that
little spider, but damnit, he shouldn't have been crawling on me.
I hate that.
May 18th, 2002
This morning I sat in the reading chair in my long
silk nightgown - the one with the little straps that tend to slide
off. I held my warm tea with both hands as I looked at the ocean
while it too woke up. Amelie
was playing in the background and I felt as though I was in my own
little French movie and that anything was possible.
January 11, 2002.
Since the day she was born almost 3 years ago,
I've waited for the day I could talk to her on the phone and she
would talk back. When I rang today she said, "Hi Auntie!" and from
there we had a whole conversation about lunch.
November 28, 2001
Three years after I started, I am sending in the
(hopefully) last of my immigration papers to see if they'll let
me stay since during my two year probation I've managed to stay
away from overthrowing the government and becomming a prostitute.
For that I know they should grant me the OK yet I'm back to feeling
nervous and unsure all over again.
september 12, 2001
Robbie
Williams reminds me of a whole bunch of blokes I used to hang
out with when I was in my early twenties. Sometimes I miss them
so much, and sometimes, im just really glad i moved on.
september 10th, 2001
I've said the word "ass" 5 times at work this week.
I am so going to get my ass sued one day. Ah damn, there I go again.
april 04th, 2001
Trying to acheive your dream is really hard work.
Maybe thats why the world is full of sorry sods who never get theirs.
But I'm trying. I'm really trying.
march 20th, 2001
There was u's in the words. They said "zaid"
not "zee." They qued in lines. The tea was real. No one
was chatty in elevators.
february 06th, 2001
I usually don't have jealous fits, but the girl
looks good, has great hair, has style, can act and now I find she
can really sing.
Damn you Gwenyth... damn you all to hell.
november 11, 2000
I feel guilty for wanting more than I have right
now. But it's not things I want but experiences, sleep and relaxation.
Does that justify the greed then?
september 23rd, 2000
It's bad when you have the "smelly cat"
song stuck in your head. Its really bad when you start to hum it
unconciously. But its really really bad when the freak next to you
on the bus starts singing harmony.
16.08.00
This whole page has had the paragraphs beginning
with "I." How self absorbed am I?
05.08.00
"I wanted you to smell the flowers." "but you frightened me."
"I didn't mean to." "why the flowers?" "because you're nice." "and
the card?" "because I love you."
05.01.00
I know now, why we're together. On different days,
from different stores, we bought each other the exact same wonderful
anniversary card - that wasn't even an anniversary card. What made
me smile more than that, was what he wrote
in his.
30.07.00
I don't get it. Do other people not notice it?
What's with american movies and english accents? They're supposed
to be french, but they speak with an english accent. Polish? English
accent. Argh. The tip of the iceberg is Les Miserable the movie.
All really bad english accents. The madness must stop.
07.07.00
I hate when people argue with just emotions and
attack personal versus being factual. Especially women. If women
could just stick to the facts and get over things, there would be
less arguments and they'd take only .45 seconds to settle.
06.14.00
I felt proud. The Final Question in Jeopardy "In
1934 this book had a picture of a crab on the front and the words
written "Not yet ready for the USA." They bastards all
got it wrong. I knew it was Henry Millers Tropic of Cancer. One
of the greatest books of all time, and sitting on my shelf.
10.05.00
In the meantime. How I'm loathing that phrase.
To me it means how to kill time until you can do something. But
I want to do something now. I can do something now. But unfortunately,
now is in the meantime.
09.05.00